Sunday, October 15, 2006

hallo. i m being a bodoh on msn now. i need a break. heh. quite tired out le. i have decided to pon school on monday. been having headaches for the last 2 days, and its like panadol also never work. darn pain man. feels like ur heads getting drill into. heh. not like anyone cared much about me. the biggest concern i got was from my mom, she went like 'why is ur face so pale' and den went on to lecture me bout some weird thing.

parents...

ladedum. u know its always kinda weird, u cry urself dry in cell and service but once the week starts, u sort of just 4get about the stuff that touched ur heart and made u cry. really need to stop all my nonsense man. today cell was interesting man, felt like sis yating smacked wadever i had been feeling for the last week right into my face. interesting seriously, shall type that notes out and put it my room, someone please do remind me.

God kinda spoke today during cell, i seem to be crying more, i dunno whether its good or bad. haha. throughout, the whole cell today. lets see. the one that came most clearly just came like, i was looking at the screen that said, act like a councillor, den the councillor changed into a Christian. heh. other stuff that came along was, remember what he has taken You through, drink from the river of life, Jesus is the horn of my salvation. Gosh, quite abit of stuff right, had a revealtion too, its like for a split second i was thinking, u know, wayne rooney, he used to be a kid with loads of potential at everton, but everton was never going to be a place where he could develop into a superstar cus it was small club, den he moved on to man u. met sir alex ferguson, hu brought loads out of him, made him mature and mellowed him, and i used to disgust him, now i admire him. and i feel that we are like wayne rooney, out there in the world, the potential we have,is only gonna take us that far. bring in God and he magnifies the talents we have, maximises the potential within us, and takes us from hu we are, to hu he wants us to be, and bigger than we ever dreamed we would be, and people hu disgust us, will admire us, and they will say, our God is a great manager. heh.

think of it this way, really makes it seem like wads true in the natural is also true in the supernatural, everything has a slice of God in it. interesting isnt it. my daddy God is like my sir alex ferguson, one day, i m gonna be worth loads, on the heavenly transfer market.

lets pray i keep thinking that way.

u know sometimes u get so used to certain stuff in life, that their removal would leave u at a lost, gosh. u would be so mixed up, its almost like taking away ur phone, ur right hand, heh, wadever vital to ur survival. oh wells. suck it up ba. its all for the better. and next time, u ll look back on this and go, yups, i did it right there and thats why i m here now. or u ll go, if i didnt screw it up then, i would be up there now, heh. remember. and remember it well my dear nicholas tan.

a cool quote. by me. haha. but i but someone already came up with it. i mean like theres really not much new stuff under the sun.

"your past defined your present, your present defines your future."
-nicholas

it really is in your hands. isnt it.

|cowpoo| 1:13 AM|

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